About

Do I conform to my culture, tradition, family, and who I was programmed to be?

Or do I confront my long-held beliefs, attitudes, and choices so I could reclaim my power?

I chose the road less trodden, and that decision set me on a journey of innumerable cycles of death & rebirth.

When you dare to go against the norm, suddenly you find yourself alone - scaringly alone.

There was nothing to anchor me except a deep-down soul calling that there must be more to life than that which meets the eye.

Born & raised in a patriarchal family with a heightened emphasis on the value of education, I thought my path was well laid out for me – by others. Thankfully, I excelled in studies, but that excellence came at a cost.

Living with an undiagnosed Complex PTSD meant academics became my foolproof default defense mechanism and a way to seek validation, adoration, and to justify my existence.

By the time I graduated with a Master's in Physics, I thought my analytical skills, combined with a strong work ethic and a determined mind, were enough to succeed in the world.

But then life happened, like it always does.

A series of breakdowns turned my world upside down, and for the first time in my life, I came face to face with the invisible, mostly unconscious, dreaded world of emotions.

On one hand, I hated going through the motions of anger, guilt, and shame. On the other hand, I was also weirdly fascinated by them. How can I act completely sane and rational one moment, only to grapple with shame & confusion the very next?

Needless to add, emotions made zero sense to me back then.

Despite meditating hundreds of hours, I was absolutely at a loss in dealing with my emotional roller coaster rides, setting healthy boundaries, and speaking my truth.

That’s when I knew I had to look elsewhere.

Around that time, I came across a quote: Ascension is 99% Emotional Healing.

I thought, great, if emotional clearing is what it takes to build inner coherence, then so be it.

I have a Master's in Physics. I excel at figuring things out. I was set. 

I was ready to beat my opponent with a measuring stick.

As you can imagine, it didn’t go too well.

When I began my inner explorations, it didn’t cross my mind, not even once, to ask or look for help.

I was convinced I was brilliant enough to figure out my stuff—kinda a miss-know-it-all.

I thought Physics was hard. But Shadow Work was a hundred times harder.

In the end, I had to learn to sit with my unacknowledged hurt, years of living with emotional neglect & abandonment, and the traumas endured.

Little did I know that the body has an innate intelligence far greater than my little analytical mind could fathom.

There comes a time when the only thing one can trust is that inner voice to keep going even when it makes no logical sense.

Trust, I did, and it led me to pursue my second master's with a specialization in Psychology and becoming certified in Somatic Work.

Deep diving into the works of Carl Jung, Marion Woodman, Marie-Louise von Franz, Esther Harding, Liz Greene, Dr. Peter Levine, Deb Dana, Dr. Stephen Porges, among countless others, I instinctively knew I had come home.

I felt my unconscious come alive as I devoured psychology books.

I could finally perceive how I was psychologically wired, and where I was psychically entangled.

There is a quiet grace that comes with knowing one’s psychological makeup; for it makes it infinitely easier to let go of the old story.

When you start paying heed to the dark and hidden contents of your mind as much as you do to your mundane everyday life, you won’t be jostled around by your unconscious like before.

Carl Jung, in Aion, famously wrote, “Until you make the unconscious conscious it will rule your life and you will call it fate.”